Tuesday, April 25, 2006

hmmm... interesting...

i always wonder who makes up this junk... but its funny anyway... and sometimes pretty accurate... wierd.
Now i need to find me a Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, or Traveler Soul ;)

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Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul
You Are a Dreaming Soul

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I have measured out my life with coffee spoons

have you ever got to that place in your life where you just don't have words?? or if you start using you words you'll just never stop? i'm sorry my dearest Rochelle for not writing. but somebody somewhere wrote it better in a song than i could ever say.

"Time present and time past
Are both perhaps present in time future,
And time future contained in time past.
If all time is eternally present
All time is unredeemable.
What might have been is an abstraction
Remaining a perpetual possibility
Only in a world of speculation.
What might have been and what has been
Point to one end, which is always present.
Footfalls echo in the memory
Down the passage which we did not take
Towards the door we never opened"

BURNT NORTON (No. 1 of 'Four Quartets')
T.S. Eliot

I'm done.

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
In cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

How about love? Measure in love
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?

In truths that she learned,
Or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
Or the way that she died.

If nothing else, watch this movie. ("RENT") it gives you a powerful reminder about how we use each one of the 525600 minutes we are granted a year.
Life changes so quickly in mere seconds, its astonishing to think in about the last 52559 minutes and what i've done with it.



And indeed there will be time
For the yellow smoke that slides along the street,
Rubbing its back upon the window-panes;
There will be time, there will be time
To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet;
There will be time to murder and create,
And time for all the works and days of hands
That lift and drop a question on your plate;
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea.
...
And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
Would it have been worth while,
To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
To have squeezed the universe into a ball
To roll it toward some overwhelming question,
To say: “I am Lazarus, come from the dead,
Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all”—
If one, settling a pillow by her head,
Should say: “That is not what I meant at all.
That is not it, at all.”
...
And would it have been worth it, after all,
Would it have been worth while,
After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets,
After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the floor—
And this, and so much more?—
It is impossible to say just what I mean!
But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen:
Would it have been worth while
If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl,
And turning toward the window, should say:
“That is not it at all,
That is not what I meant, at all.”

The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock
T.S. Elliot

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Complicated

Uh-huh,
Life's like this
Uh-huh, uh-huh
That's the way it is
'Cause life's like this
Uh-huh, uh-huh
That's the way it is

Chill out,
What you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

I like you the way you are
When we're, driving in my car
And you're talking to me
One on one
But you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool
To me

Tell me

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
And you fall and you crawl
And you break and you take
What you get and you turn it into
Honesty Promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it

No, no, no

You come over unannounced
Dressed up like you're something else
Where you are and
Where you sat, you see
You're making me
Laugh out
When you strike a pose
Take off all your preppy clothes
You know
You're not fooling anyone
When you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
Tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool
To me

Tell me

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
And you fall and you crawl
And you break and you take
What you get and you turn it into
Honesty Promise me
I'm never gonna find you fake it

No, no, no...

Chill out,
What you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could let it be
You will see

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
You're watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool
To me, to me

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
And you fall and you crawl
And you break and you take
What you get and you turn it into
Honesty Promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it

No, no

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
And you fall and you crawl
And you break and you take
What you get and you turn it into
Honesty Promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

MADE IT - Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir


I'VE BEEN THROUGH MANY HARD TRIALS,
I COULDN'T EXPLAIN IT NO, AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHY.
WHY I HAD TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN,
BUT PRAISE THE LORD TODAY THERE'S HEALING IN HIS NAME

I MADE IT (AND I'M SO THANKFUL) SO THANKFUL
(I NEVER COULD HAVE MADE IT)
I NEVER COULD HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR WITHOUT THE LORD.
I MADE IT (AND I'M SO THANKFUL)SO THANKFUL
(I NEVER COULD HAVE MADE IT)
I NEVER COULD HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR WITHOUT THE LORD

SO YOU'VE BEEN HURT, FEEL SO ABUSED,
TRIED TO DO THE RIGHT THINGS, AND STILL GET USED.
I KNOW YOU'RE WONDERING WHY, SO MUCH PAIN.
BUT THANK THE LORD, THERE'S A BLESSING IN YOUR PAIN.
THE LORD WANTS YOU TO KNOW THERE'S HEALING IN HIS NAME

THROUGH SICKNESS (BY HIS STRIPES I'VE BEEN HEALED);
THROUGH SORROW (HE WAS MY COMFORT AND ALL MY STRENGTH);
THROUGH HEARTACHE (JESUS HEALED ALL OF MY PAIN);
DEPRESSION (NOW I CAN SING)

its been an interesting experience singing black gospel music - one i'd highly recommend to anybody. There's nothing quite like praising God at the top of your lungs ;)

Monday, April 10, 2006

the beauty of gospel music...



BLESSING IN THE STORM

When I cannot hear the sparrow sing
And I cannot feel the melody
There's a secret place that's full of grace
There's a blessing in the storm,
Help me sing it
There's a blessing in the storm.

Verse 2:
When the sickness won't leave my body
And the pain just won't leave my soul
I get on my knees and say "Jesus please"
There's a blessing in the storm,
Help me sing it
There's a blessing in the storm.

Verse 3:
When I cannot seem to love again
And the raindrops won't ever end
If you just hold on
Those clouds will soon be gone
There's a blessing in the storm
Help me sing it
There's a blessing in the storm.

hold me now


"Hold Me Now"

The spring of April is gone
The leaves have all turned brown
The children have all grown up
And there's no one around
I'm looking over my life and all the mistakes I made
And I'm afraid
Afraid
Somebody told me that You would wash all my sins
And cleanse me from the scars that are so deep within
So I'm calling to You
If you can hear me
I don't know how
I was wondering can you hold me now

You are the only one that's patient when I fall
Your angels come to save me every time I call
You don't laugh at me when I make mistakes and cry
You're not like man
You understand me
See people change one day
They don't like you the next they do
I wish that everyone could love me just like You
So here I am this sinful man peace won't allow

I was wondering can you hold me now
I was wondering can you hold me now

To every broken person that may hear this song
To every boy or girl that feels their smile is gone
I know exactly how it feels to lay in the bed at night
And cry
And cry
Don't you worry God is faithful and He cares
About the tears you drop and the pain you feel He there
When you are weak that's when he's strong
Even though you don't know how
God can and he will hold you now
God can and he will hold you now
God can and he will hold you now
Don't you worry he can hold you now

Saturday, April 08, 2006

The h(ro)omies

Yo'... homies... a great year :)

so much for my happy ending

Wow, life is moving at rather a rapid pace. Finished school yesterday - FINALLY - seems like this semester has gone on forever. now for exams. yippee... After that maybe i'll just sleep for a whole week.
AJ and i have decided to move in together for the summer - we've found a place - but i think i'm going to check out a few other options today... regardless, our leases are up April 30, so i guess we'll be SOMEWHERE on May 1st. Its actually pretty exciting... i like moving into a new place and setting everything up. i just don't feel like moving 3 times in the next 8 months. And i'm sad to be loosing my roomies - shout out to Andrea, Mel, Karla and Kristie - i'll miss you guys, its been fun.

anyway - i'm going to go catch a shower...
life continues at max pace today.

PS: have you noticed an angry chick music vid trend? maybe i'm an angry chick. you should watch out!



Oh, the tangled webs we weave When we practice to deceive.
Sir Walter Scott, "Marmion"
Scottish author & novelist (1771 - 1832)

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

'trippin'

It has been an interesting week. Monday night, i went with Mel, Andrea, Shaun and J to watch "Lucky number sleven" - a freebee from work. It was really weird but the end was excellent. Unfortunately, Indy's car blew up that day, so he didn't come. Uggg... i hate car trouble. it blows.
Tuesday was a fun morning of running errands. I suckered Indy into coming with me (bwahhaha) so that was entertaining at least! If you haven't been into the new admin building on campus, you should really go and check out the latex inflatable display. it really is quite something.



Thursday was Mom's birthday. I had more freebee tickets, this time to "take the lead" - which was FANTASTIC. I picked up mom and dad after work and we went to the movie. Then AJ and i had organized to go past Tony Thomas so that she could see mom on her birthday and give her flowers. Mom was totally blindsided, since she thought going to see AJ was her idea... haha... we're SCHNEAKY!



J, Indy and i have been planning on going on a road trip since like Sept => originally it was meant to be Vancouver (ditchers) but 2 weeks ago i was inspired to go see the tunnels in Moose Jaw.  So 8am on Sunday morning J picked up Indy and I, and we set off for "little Chicago". Naturally the day started with a stop for breakfast at McD's... here we see J caressing Indy's neck.. ah affection... Silly boys.

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When we finally got to Moose jaw (after much tormenting from the two of them - WHY did i sign up for driving long distances with them??? You don't know either?) it was about 10:30. so we drove around and looked at the town for a while. Then we went for an early lunch, since the tunnels only open at 12. We went on the Chicago tour - it was excellent! really well done. We came out with the nicknames of gigit, doorstop and charlie... all booze-deprived bootleggers... (US? NEVER)




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We decided that since we were in MJ, we should catch ALL the local attractions, so we headed over to the casino/ temple gardens spa. I lost then recovered than lost my $5 (it happens) and the boys played a bit before we went swimming :) GORGEOUS!
Indy managed to tell the same lady (on 2 diff occasions) that "sorry about her... she's not from here" - which was pretty hilarious considering we didn't notice that it was the same lady until she started laughing.... JERK!



Greg phoned to come and catch up with us on his way back to Briarcrest, so we visited with him for a while. Since we were in Moose Jaw, we couldn't pass up the opportunity to take pics with the giant moose  - Indy and J seem somewhat impressed with its anatomy... haha... so much to be said at this point.

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awww.. more cuddling... so sweet.
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And the love goes on and on. I did draw the line at wedding dress shopping. lol. life is good when you have a pair of crazy boys around :)

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Anyway - to round off our day, we went to go watch "Ice age - the meltdown" at Galaxy. Very cute.
Its amazing - we packed so much stuff into one little day that by the time we were leaving the city at 9:30, it felt like we had been there for days. The perfect holiday.



Ah ha. the "richard" wave.  Really describes much of our drive home...
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I'll be really disappointed if we don't get to go on another road trip - that would be a distinct plus for staying in 'toon for the summer - cos this one ROCKED!



anyway - i should REALLY be doing my very important paper right now.
So I'm going to SWITCH OFF my internet access and get going.



WISH ME WELL - ONLY 2 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT :) :) :) YIPPPEEE! (and EEEEKK!! This paper has to be in on THURSDAY!!!!)



ciao.

Just walk away.

I'm impressed: she manages to capture it all in one song. wow.

Walk Away Lyrics

You've got your mother and your brother, every other
Under cover telling you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is, that it's
CupidBaby, loving you has made me this way

So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger,oh yah
You need to know this situations getting old
And now the more you talk, the less I can say
I'm looking for attention
I don't know the question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here

Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk awayJust walk away,
Just walk away

I waited here for you like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed
I gave you everything and never asked for anything
And look at me, I'm all alone
So before you start defending, baby
Stop all your pretending
I know ,you know ,I know
So what's the point in being slow,
"Let's get this show on the road today"

Hey I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey,Hey, Hey, HeyJust walk away
Just walk away, Just Walk Away

I want a love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I want a man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you going to fight for me
Die for me
Live and breathe for me
Do you care for me
Cause if you don't then just leave

I'm looking for attention
I don't know the question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk away
If you dont have the answer
Walk Away
Just Walk Away
Then Just Leave

oh yeah walk away walk away